So I’m into day 4 now and I don’t want to smoke up. I gave away everything in my stash yesterday. I have been smoking a lot of cigarettes though.
Today has been charged with a lot of negative emotions. I am angry and frustrated and have been crying profusely. There are many things that I have not dealt with in the past few years, and have smoked up and managed to either shut them up or make alternate non-realistic scenarios that helped deflect them away. I guess some of these things are resurfacing now.
I have not been able to think properly especially about my work and club. I hold high positions in both and I’m required to think quickly and strategically, but I just can’t. I can’t help wondering whether I’m just not fit or I’m going through a withdrawal related episode. What’s getting to me the most is seeing how my peers are effortlessly identifying next steps and actioning them, when I feel crippled and extremely overwhelmed.
Is this normal?