Angel’s Day 2
First of all, I feel so blessed to have stumbled upon Joe’s YouTube video a couple of days ago. I was mentally preparing myself to quit, yet again, and desperately needed BIG TIME help!! In the past year I’ve tried quitting 4 times and it was a big fail because either I was 1) bored, 2) around people who smoked, 3) no will power, 4) out of habit. Another thing…since I quit smoking cigarettes 8 months ago, I’ve noticed my marijuana abuse has gotten more ridiculous. Anyways, THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.
I started experimenting with the ganja when I was 16 but didn’t seriously get into it until I was 18 in college. Pot was always accessible at every party so I got hooked on it really fast and was always chasing the next high. Fast forward 17 years….Now I’m 35 and live in Los Angeles where I can drive 10 minutes to a dispensary and choose from 20-40 different kinds of strains including a huge array of edible options. ARGH!!!!
I’m exactly how Joe described himself on the YouTube video. I’m either all in or out when it comes to the weed. When I had it, it is used first thing in the morning and didn’t stop until I was pass out on my couch. None of my friends really knew how deep of an addiction this was for me. Being a superb closet weed addict was what I was good at. I guess because of that I was partially in denial, although I knew that I had to QUIT…but after that “one more hit.” I’m effin done with that “one more hit.” I’m so sick of it that I want to beat it up, kick it to the curb, make it bleed and die. (Sorry about that but that’s how angry I was for smoking for so long)
So now I’m on DAY 2, feeling proud that I’ve made that HUGE DECISION to quit the pot. But physically not feeling that great because I am sick with a horrible cold. I also had to break up with someone I was seeing because whenever we got together all we did was drink and smoke. He was definitely a TRIGGER and if we were to stay together, my attempt to quit would have been broken. Big bummer because I felt we connected. Oh well…so is life.
No withdrawal symptoms, no dreams or nightmares, no sweating…yet. But I’m looking forward to them, ready to battle with my sword and shield. I will protect myself and conquer this war!!!!
Joe, Katie, Richie…and other bloggers here, thank you so much for this blog. I’m so happy to have found you and I know that in my heart that if I keep blogging, I will become more successful and will be on my way to be a non pot smoker.