Marie QUITS! Day 1
Just threw out all my stash, pipes, papers, etc. Went to a concert last night and did not feel like smoking but did it anyway, and as a result did not enjoy the concert as much as I would have if I had remained sober (weird?? Not weird, just atypical, for me).
I have been struggling to quit for many years, and my husband is also a smoker. I have gone as long as a year without pot in the past, but usually no more than three months. My husband often will be the one to “break” the abstinence. Last time, one week ago, after a week of abstinence, HE was the one who got mad at me for bringing it back – YAY! He has never wanted to quit before, it was always me. Now that he wants to quit, I think it will be a whole lot easier. If he gives in and brings some home, I will remember that it does not have to affect my personal mission.
Also I am just now realizing, as I write this, that I have quit for three months several times in the past. Hmmm…. three months from now is… Christmas! Then New Year, which is also my birthday. Lots of excuses around that time… but looking ahead now, and planning for that, will help, I think. Today I will brainstorm a bit about what that time might be like when I am experiencing all of the benefits of being sober (I don’t drink) and also What the new year will bring and how much more I will be able to enjoy and accomplish.
And being that it is day 1, I am going to do a classic “replacement” method of quitting, by beginning a daily meditation practice. I will start with 10 minutes. Today I will do it at 5pm (my husband gets home from work at around 5:30).