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Thank you for the warm welcome JC. Well, the day is here and I’m terrified. I am terrified that I won’t be me anymore. I am terrified that life will be boring and dull, and I am terrified that I will fail. I have been smoking pot since I was 12, but have been a medicinal user for 6 years now. I have MS, and it’s been my choice of drug. I tried the chemicals, and they are horrible. I decided if I had to be addicted to something it should be natural at least. My doctor signed my prescription, and off to the dispensary I went. I started with a few grams a week, ahhh, those were the days…now, I’m up to 3-4 grams a day…way too much. I did however stop smoking cigarettes , it will be one full year Jan 2 2014! that was easy…I could be honest with myself and tell myself it was only harmful for me, but Pot, I know it helps me, but it also hurts me. A bit harder to convince myself.
I have been methodically cutting back as my last bag of weed gets smaller. I have one puff left, and I plan on smoking it tonight.
I am a fine art photographer, and I am worried that my artistic flare will somehow disappear when Im not stoned 24/7…anyone out there who can help me with this, I would love to hear from you.
I live in Vancouver Canada, yes, home to famous BC bud. everyone I know smokes weed.So far, the plan is to avoid those folks…at least for a while..
for tonight, I bought some over the counter sleep aid, and hope to get some sleep. thanks for reading…and nice to meet you all…