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Today was day 16 in my personal quest to stop smoking pot. Unfortunately, I’ve recently been suffering from a lot of neck pain due to herniated discs in my neck – they really seem to be flaring up. In the past, I would just use marijuana to deal with the pain and it would help get me through the day – but no longer.
I now need to find another way to cope with this chronic pain – but have not found the correct answer yet … In the past when I went to the doctor (western doctors), they would simply prescribe me narcotic pain relievers and muscle relaxers. At one point I was actually very addicted to Vicodin, but got off of it and have not taken it for many years.
In my past search for ways to deal with pain, I have found that there are many Eastern Style practitioners who really really care about the health of their patients. They are not just there to prescribe drugs. Acupuncture actually saved my life after having headaches every day for over two years. So … the bottom line is that I need to make some money so I can go back to acupuncture treatments. I really think that they are the solution.
A couple of interesting changes that I’ve noticed over the past couple of days – besides the serious pain. One thing is that my sense of smell is getting much more acute – unfortunately getting more sensitive to mostly bad odors. Another thing is that this morning (after 15 days without pot) I finally started coughing up some black crap out of my lungs. Stoners call this stuff “resin balls”. I just find it interesting that I haven’t been hacking this stuff up earlier …
Today while in a business meeting, I suddenly became very ill. I had to get up and go the the washroom and then cancel my next appointment and go directly home. Before I reached my bed to lay down, I became violently physically sick. After sleeping much of the day and not eating anything, I’m feeling a bit better – hungry and with a lot of muscle aches, but afraid to eat.
I am hoping that the neck pain I’ve been experiencing for the past couple of days was a precursor to what seems like this bout of the flu – and that it will go away with the sickness.
Only time will tell
Thanks for watching the video, reading the blog and for all the positive support!
Well I have got through day 1 and although it is 2:30am I am feeling physically tired for once which is nice for a change. Usually the Doob has me feeling wide awake at night time keeping me up watching YouTube until stupid O’clock (as I call it). I have admittedly had 5 beers and have chain smoked all day but hey it’s a start I guess.
Feeling a little detached from the world but it ain’t that bad as of yet.
Wish me luck.
All the best,
I feel that writing here is helping me vent my feelings because I haven’t told anyone of my family or friends that I am quitting.
I am going to note here both my positive and negative feelings and experiences over the coming weeks. In saying that it would appear that I am really quitting.
I now also feel that I have your support and feel like I now have something to prove. Your support and accomplishments up to this point impress me.
Before I was a stoner I used to love a challenge so why not now too?
So here goes…
Managed to get to sleep after the few mouthfuls of Scoth last night at around 6:00am.
I set my alarm for 11:00 this morning with the hope I would then get up and be more tired this evening and could hopefully sleep better. Problem is I slept right through until around 3:00pm. Not good, as it is my first day back to work tomorrow and I know that because I got to sleep so late and got up so late that it will be tough to try and sleep tonight and I have to get up tomorrow at 7:30am.
I have started having dreams again already. A little weird but nothing negative as of yet.
I am feeling a little depressed.
Screw it! If I only get 2 hours sleep tonight, I only have to battle through work tomorrow and then hopefully be so tired tomorrow night that getting to sleep wont be an issue and may push me back into a normal sleeping routine.
Tomorrow I will only be very tired at work but not exhausted because I just had 3 week holidays and have slept in everyday.
Waking up today I felt quite groggy but I think it was just due to sleeping so long, excessive cigarette smoking and the few extra drinks last night. However, once I got up and got a few black teas into me I feel surprisingly better. I feel groggy but not that same groggy I would usually feel after Hash.
For the first time in years I actually went a whole day without smoking. I know it’s only 1 day, but hey, I’m impressed with my will power. It’s a start.
Today I found half a joint in an ashtray and threw it in the bin. That surprised me.
I am feeling a little more motivated. Not much, but at least a little.
I think that’s it for now.
I have a shit-load of housework to due that I didn’t bother doing while I was stoned.
I feel a little down and unmotivated but I will try to start on that to see if it helps my mood.
I came across your ‘How I Quit Smoking Pot – Perhaps the Most Truthful and Humbling Video I Have Ever Made’ Video just now on YouTube.
It was nice to find such a recent video on this topic. Congratulations on your strength to quit up to this point.
I am a 40 year old guy who also wishes to simply stop smoking hash and move on with my life which I feel has been in limbo for years as my motivation has hit an all time low and I get nothing personal done anymore and always leave important personal and work related stuff to the last minute or don’t take care of things at all due to prioritising smoking over everything. My concentration at work has gotten really bad too because recently I have been staying up really late smoking and only getting on average 5 hours sleep a night. This makes me ‘brain-dead’ in the morning and it is a serious struggle to get our of bed and function at a work to a point that my boss has pulled me into meetings to question my performance on several occasions. This has cost me dearly and also financially too due to been fined for not paying bills on time even if I had the money but was too lazy to pay the bill due to smoking. I am reliant on hash to make me relax and feel ‘normal’ in the evenings. I used to be extremely motivated, proactive and social and all this behaviour make me feel like an idiot and a loser as I consider myself weak and quite pathetic for not quitting. I have been smoking daily (mostly only evenings after work or when my kid is in bed) for around 15 years straight (13 years weed and 2 years hash instead due to paranoia from weed) and am extremely worried about the side effects of quitting (lack of concentration, depression, lack of focus, lack of sleep, irritable, aggressive…etc). I am always under serious pressure at work (project manager) and am concerned that I will not be able to function properly at work while withdrawing during the critical 6 to 8 week it can take to balance out and start feeling normal.
I have always put off quitting due to it never being the ‘right time’ to deal with the withdrawal process. For example, I was to busy and stressed at work, my Mum was terminally sick (passed last year) or I didn’t want to spend my holiday going through withdrawals…etc.
I have been thinking seriously about quitting for many years now. This Christmas just gone, I reduced my use a little (down to about 2 joints an evening and opposed to the usual 4 or so)
I am back to work on Monday (7th Jan, 2013) and I have enough block left for about 2 joints this evening. I want this evening to by my last time smoking, try and get through the weekend and then stay off it. I am already fighting the urge to go and pick up some this evening.
I have an addictive personality and usually have a couple of beers every evening too. However, my tolerance for alcohol is very high due to the this similar bad habit of ‘a beers every evening’. I also want to dump this bad habit and stop drinking Monday to Friday.
In the past, when I could not get hash, I noticed that to compensate having no hash I would chain smoke cigarettes and end up drinking a lot more (probably 8 beers an evening as opposed to the usual 2) so that I could attempt to sleep.
My goal is to quit hash first without my alcohol use going ‘over the top’ (which it probably will).
Is there anything you can suggest in relation to my situation or to help me deal with the mental and physical withdrawals in relation to diet and habit…etc.?
Any feed back at all is appreciated.
Can I actually do this??
Thanks Buddy and good luck,