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OK – I have successfully been able to stay off of pot for the last 6 days – including Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and my 50th birthday (in the past all these days were usually days of heavy consumption). I feel very good about that – but have been especially testy and agro (heavily aggravated at the simplest things).
So far I have not killed anyone, but have been a terror on the roads due to lack of patience with other drivers – and have pissed off more than a couple of people with some of the emails I have sent. I have not been a very pleasant person to be around most of the time – and am embarrassed at the way that I have acted in front of my 9 year old daughter.
Yesterday I got into it online with a local clothing company about the prices they wanted to charge me – and I wasted WAY too much time on fighting with them – blogging about it and registering a complaint with the Better Business Bureau (which is a scam too – I should know – I used to work with them).
On the positive side, I have managed to make it through each day without smoking (or eating) any marijuana. It’s also a really good thing that I’m noticing and becoming aware of my terrible behavior. That is NOT the person that I want to be and I just know that I have made the best decision possible to refrain from using pot – hopefully ever again.
Some people seem to be able to smoke on occasion and enjoy it and not need to smoke it all the time. I have learned that I am not one of those people and that I just need to learn to live a healthier, cleaner life.