Day 5 !
Day 5! the longest ive been without weed for 7 years! I’m starting to feel better in myself, but im still thinking about lighting up almost every day.
Getting to sleep was quite hard at first, just been having a glass of warm milk (old school method) and a few Kalms sleep tablets, (homeopathic) before i go to bed every night.Been feeling a lot fresher in the mornings, i can feel my brain working that little bit faster at work, when having conversations, and generally my head feels clearer, i hope this will keep improving! I still feel as though the weed has got hold of me though as i keep thinking about it ALOT, does anybody know if this feeling will disappear or will i just learn to deal with it? I never thought id be able to get home from work every night and not reach for the rizla and grinder, but ive done it this week ! now the weekend is upon me and the next challenge awaits. Usually i play football every Saturday and Sunday, the ritual used to be a big fat joint before the game, so its gonna be tough travelling there with my friends who will be blazing up on the way there ,but im looking forward to playing the game with a clear fresh head for a change. Had my first vivid dream last night aswell, i was dreaming about smoking weed , suprise suprise! In my dream i did smoke a joint, and remember feeling so pissed off with myself , the dream felt like real life! That did help me strangely enough , because now i know how i would feel if i did light up again – angry, pissed off, and disappointed in myself! To anybody else out that is reading this and thinking of giving the weed up, i urge you to give it a go! search youtube videos, read other posts on this website, if youre on here then you are probably considering it anyway, youre probably imagining how dull and boring life would be without the weed, infact its quite the opposite, i no longer have the hazey cloudy head feeling constantly. and keep saying to myself IM NOT GIVING IN!
thanks for reading.
Alex, Northampton, England.